Here's a sample of a very short animation i'm working on ^^
He's my bunny born on easter named Ishtar ; w ; This animation will feature Jini's bunny Solei! ^^
WHY?!?!?!? ; A ;
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!?!?! ; A ;
FORGET ABOUT MY LOVE RANT = w = It's taken care of I guess D8 SO I NEED TO JUST ENJOY BEING SINGLE WHILE I CAN 8D LOL
Now onto business!
I never made cookies before..SO! HERE'S A LOOK AT MY FIRST BATCH OF COOKIES LOL OTL
I think something is wrong...
As of this moment I'm just very confused about myself and what I'm actually feeling for someone D8 I...dont like it @A@ Cause for some reason I'm very scared, Not really because of them, but because of myself @A@ Im scared cause someone like me back, does that make sense? >A> LOL This is just a stupid rant. not really rant, just need to type stuff SOMEWHERE @A@ But idk D8 trust trust trust...I have to trust them with all i've got! And I do, but sometimes things happen and all these thoughts run through my head and I start to get depressed :/ my mind needs to try and decide what it wants, along with my heart... I guess I just need to see more effort because I can't give any more ;0; This feels like an entry I might regret writing, but right now I need to @A@;;
But I really do love them so much ; w ;
And I like the feeling of finally being loved back (somehow im always in one-sided feelings)
They are the only one that I'd cry this much over and make my heart beat this much >//A//< GRAWR! BUT WRRRRRRYYYYYYY!!!!! FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
Makes me feel like a clingy bitch for some reason ; 3 ; But I just feel like something lately...is odd. I always kick myself in the teeth for saying "those 3 little words" cause whenever I do I feel like such an idiot, and things always seem awkward, or they leave for a long time... bawwwwh. But they have a life too! D8< So why do I get so upset... This is why I dont think I should even be compatible with anyone :/ I feel like such an attention whore. How does everyone else deal with stuff like this OTL They are only gone for a few days, but those few days really hurt me for some reason... because it's without word, or no drop in so I can see that they are okay, and I dunno @A@ I just get so lonely. I...AM SO SELFISH ;A; I really feel like I'm the most selfish person EVER! O T L
But I feel so ignored lately, even though they probably have a reason for it ;0; So I just bare with it because I know that I will see them again soon and be happy again ; w ; waiting is the hardest part, But I'm a big girl ; 3 ; I can do it.
But I dunno... I might have to force myself to stay away from the internet for a while...
I'm one that always gets paranoid that I did something or said something I shouldn't have. And I think I did again D8 for some reason...idk.
ALSO: If you want to be my friend, dont treat me like an idiot :/ Cause I can drop friends like flies apparently for being mean to me D8 soooo please just cut the crap with me. I just lost a friend I met a few weeks ago, but I should have gotten rid of her sooner for talking bad about my friend. I don't understand people. You do your best to help them out and give them every second on your attention, then they go "Sorry, we cant talk anymore bye." And that's it >A> oooookay? Screw u I guess :/
ON ANOTHER NOTE: I havent been able to sleep well lately ;0; But im sketching a lot to pass the time and excersizing since my kidneys are acting up, they are also affecting my eyes, so i cant see very well D8 well damn. But I'm doing my best~!!
I dunno, I just haven't been very happy lately...
I'm always alone when I need someone the most D8 wtfk is this shit?
.:I miss you:.
The newest picture I'm working on ;w;
I can't wait till it's finised *A* It will be up on my website when it's done ;w;
